It’s something I hope
we all struggle with. I would hate to be the only one. Although being the only
one is just the problem. You see, I struggle with believing that I am
essential, unmissable, absolutely necessary. I want to be THE ONE who is
needed. I want to feel that without me, everything would fall apart. Mind you,
I don’t think that out loud - not even in my mind – but that is what it comes
down to. But the reality is, if I am doing what I really want to do, what God
wants me to do, then I will never be the one on whom everything depends. And
that is how it should be.
What I really want is
that people will learn and grow and be able to do all the things that I am also
doing, which I learned from others who taught me the things they learned from
others. That is the picture – passing it on. If I am doing this, then I am never
going to be indispensable. But if I were indispensable, then at some point what
I was doing would end. And that is how we can see if something is from God or
not. Because God IS indispensable. He is THE ONE who is needed, without whom
everything will fall apart. HE is essential, not me.
I struggle with this
because I think that if I am not essential, then I am not worth anything. Being
in charge, being the most important, having it all seems like the only way to
show that I have worth. Simply being a ‘part’ doesn’t seem very worthwhile at
all. But as you see, as I see, that is not at all true. And thankfully, God is
gracious enough to let me, help me see this truth. God, the Creator of heaven
and earth, almighty, all-knowing, loving Father, allows me to work with Him. He
uses me in His essential plans to bring to fruition what ony He can do. And isn’t
it beautiful!
I want to be part of
His whole, doing what I can as He enables me, passing on to others how
beautiful it is to walk with Him. He is unmissable, indispensable, essential.
He counts me worthy, through His grace, to walk with and work with Him. What a
wonderful grace!